• War on Women, Part 3

    **Not a reader? Listen to this post on my podcast, link here!   Let’s talk about spiritual warfare for one minute. Ok, maybe five. Anyone else feel like they are under constant attack from some other outside force that cannot be explained?? Yea. That’s spiritual warfare. Jesus warns us in his earthly ministry that we are under constant surveillance from the enemy. The enemy comes to seek, destroy, kill, maim. It is part of the deal. We follow Jesus, satan stalks us. And waits to throw something in our path to trip us up. He throws flaming arrows at us, as Paul explains in Ephesians 6. Some days he doesn’t…

  • It’s Just Not Okay.

    It took me years to admit my sexual assault. Years. I never talked about it. Never thought I should. I mean, clearly, it was my fault. I did something wrong. They didn’t. And then I told someone. And then I told someone else, and you know what I found… You can’t swing a bat without hitting someone who has had sexual trauma in their lives too. I created a space for women to share their stories on my podcast, She’s Got Gumption. People have always told me their stories, even before I had an audience for it. My best friend and I joke that we are just the type of…

  • Identity…

    I think I’ve struggled my whole life with identity. I never knew my dad, and because of that I’ve missed out on the whole other side of a family I was entitled to when I was born. I was born of my mom, but she wasn’t the only one in the creative process. Granted I know that my identity is rooted in Christ. But tell that to yourself for 30 plus years, and you’ll still find a girl who wonders who the heck she is when she looks at herself in the mirror. And if I’m being really honest, I don’t look at myself in the mirror. Believe it or…

  • Strugglin’ + Survivin’

    Some days all I feel are the struggles. The struggle to get out of bed in the morning. The struggle to homeschool my kids. The struggle to get my kids to listen to me. The struggle with my autoimmune disease. The struggle with Jalen’s autism. The struggle with my past. The struggle with our future. It’s all there. It’s is all in my head, all the time. And I’m worried about it all, constantly. I started watching that new show, A Million Little Things. Don’t you just love it?? In an episode one of the characters talks about her cancer and she says, “Ya know, cancer is not the worst…

  • I Got a Tattoo at 38

    Oh, the start of a new week, and new season is upon us. And by the looks of it you’d think that new season was Christmas. But I am of the persuasion that any Christmas crap before Thanksgiving is just sacrilegious. Be grateful for what you have before you start looking for more, yo. So this past weekend me and the hubs did a thing. It was my birthday weekend and I turned 38. My best friend came into town to stay with our sassy six-year-old and we went on an overnight date. Of course, that meant we went a little wild and ate at kid-disapproved restaurants, didn’t nag the…

  • Guest Blog, Brittani Haney: War on Women 3

    When Wendy first asked me to write a guest blog for her “War on Women” series, I knew I would have a lot to say about the matter; which meant that what I really needed to do was keep my mouth shut and first seek out what Jesus would rather me say. Even as I am typing these words, I am asking the Father to use me; Praying that His heart and His voice would be louder than my own. This subject is one that is so sensitive in our country right now and I want to make sure that to the best of my ability, I speak Truth. Because…

  • Giving Up Fear…again.

    I refuse to live my life in fear. I will not back down. I will not be swayed. I may bend, but I do not break. This will not define me. This will not break me. I will be 38 in one week. And as I’m growing and learning to love and trust God with all that He is, He is teaching me that in one way or another, my life is ruled by fear. I used to think I had an anger problem, until I realized my anger came out of fear. I used to think I was a worry-wart, and that was just the way of me. But…

  • Beauty is NOT Pain

    There’s this song that always makes me cry. It is by Alessia Cara, “Scars to your Beautiful.” If you’ve heard the song, you know what I’m talking about. And if case you haven’t, I’ve linked it down below. She is basically singing the inner monologue of just about every adolescent and teenage girl ever. But in the song, she speaks a quote that we are all very familiar with as women: “Beauty is pain.” And as I was driving yesterday, I just couldn’t help but stop and think, is this seriously the message we’ve been sending women and girls all these years? Who started this saying? And why did we…

  • A Letter to My Daughter on Her 6th Birthday…

    Marin Rose. You are my heart. I’ve often said you are my reward. After a life filled with struggle and strife, you are my reward at the end of the race. You are fun and funny. You are brilliant and kind. You are mindful and full of imagination. You have multiple personalities, (in a totally fun, kid way,) and we encourage you to be yourself and be silly. I was told many years ago when you were younger, and a terror, to be careful not to ruin you. You are strong-willed and determined. You are headstrong, and fierce. “Do not break that in her,” my friend Beth told me, and…

  • War on Women Part 2

    Last year I wanted leather leggings. I put it on my closet, with sticky notes of course, that this was something I wanted to add to my fall and winter wardrobe. I started doing this a couple years ago to be more intentional about my shopping. I saw it everyday until it was Spring. The seasons came and went and no leather leggings. I texted my little cousin and told her this was the year, for sure, that I would buy myself those leather leggings. I looked a little online and realized the ones I want are like $40…for leggings!! And then I had a revelation about myself: I treat…